My Halloween...

feels like it's been a long time since i write.. well, i've been good.. extraordinarily feeling at the top of the world.. despite some terrible incidents last 2 days, im feeling great now...

last 2 days, had some misunderstandings with my bf, mum & some probs happening in my office.. sigh.. but all's well now..

can't believe i've been so careless about myself.. i left the pic of me & my ex in my hi5.. & my bf added me, accepted my invitation & saw the pic inside.. sms me & told me he saw the pic.. DAMN!! double damn!!! it's such a careless mistake that i could not forgive myself.. man....... wat a beginning of a day.. but then we talked it over.. he also asked me about some Qs.. bout my past.. i shouldn't have told him but then i told him still.. sometimes i really think i'm either stupid or retarded... previous night, he planned to give me a surprise.. but then i ruined it.. & it made him feel so down & cold inside for me... sigh...

can u imagine a nite, u had some bad times, u managed to cure it.. the next morning, it happens again... it's like ur heart has been splashed with cold water, u warm it up.. & few hrs later, splashed with cold water again... wow........ *speechless*

luckily, everything's settled b4 we get to our own bed...

beside some bf prob, my mum came in & mess up my day... i told her i need to take out some money from my bank to pay my hp bill.. she said that i'm crazy & asked me to change my job.. bla bla bla... now i'm doubting wat does she wan actually.. she says "we earn so hard to pay for ur studies til ur degree for u to have better future.. not for a RM300 job".. wat the?!?!?!?! HELLO!!! i tot u r happy that i work here?! in the beginning, i doubt bout this job... u said it's good for me to expose myself & gain experience.. now u're telling me this?! wat's wrong with u??? keep rushing me to change job.. so easy ar?!?!?! FUCK man!!!!

then comes my colleague.. telling me the catalogues that we did last week was in trouble.. i tot we did 7,500 pieces.. but then Pos Malaysia counted.. it's 10,000 pieces.. it's impossible.. now that we need to take back the remaining 2,500 pieces as waste paper? damn... it's really impossible...

great days i had.. is not wat i tot it was... now that everything's ok.. felt relieved.. lessons in life.. cannot end.. it must go on... have a great day!

the one & only,

MelodyAnne